I feel defeated.

I feel defeated. Like this.

Spanish. I'm probably going to fail. There are only three more days of class left. After December 16th, my Junior year of college will be complete. Oh gosh.

On the other hand, I was determined to talk my way in to a gated community to see Christmas lights. My sister said I couldn't do it. I made her (and her friend) come with me, and proved her very wrong. We spent a half hour driving around listening to Coldplay's new song "Christmas Lights." Watch this.

I pulled out all of my scarves and hats and gloves today. That's fun. I also went wedding dress shopping with my friend Rachel. She found "the one," and it's perfect on her. And I listened to "Little Drummer Boy," finally recognizing how beautiful the lyrics really are.

I play my drum for him. He smiled at me.

Not so defeated after all.