Showing posts with label Growing Up. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Growing Up. Show all posts

Apr 8, 2011

I'm a grown up. Or something.


I turned 21 on the 27th of March.

A bunch of people sang to me in Third Lobby at midnight. Could we please talk about how "Happy Birthday" being sung to you is possibly the most awkward thing that can happen one time per year? How do you even respond to that? I never know whether to smile or look down or look at people or sing along (the most awkward option).

My sweet sweet roommate made me breakfast in bed, including a candle in a pancake and a new Tinkerbell mug.



My parents made me pizza casserole, potato casserole, spinach salad with banana peppers and feta, and brownies and ice cream for my birthday lunch. (It's all of my favorite food. Don't even worry that it doesn't go together.) Virginia came over and it was wonderful.

That night, Jungle went with Rivendell to the Voyles' house for dinner. It was a great time of fellowship. Anna Clare made birthday cupcakes with cookie dough in them, and we sat by a fire and made s'mores.


Definitely a good birthday.

Apr 28, 2010

Growing up.

Last night, I met my little sister for coffee. And by little, I mean my sister who is literally five inches taller than me. (Yes, I did say 5.) She just turned 16 in January, and she got her cute green Honda Accord in March. (I named her Susan. She named my car Abigail.)

I arrived at Starbucks after getting lost (typical) and calling my little sister--who drove herself to Starbucks--to ask her how in the world to get there. She was sitting at a table with her homework spread out and her iPod on. If I was a normal person, I would have been intimidated by her awesomeness. No, I'm not kidding.

She is beautiful. And it has taken me 16 years, 3 months, and 9 days to realize it. (Obviously I'm a little slow.)





I think the least she deserves for putting up with my picking on her for 16 years, 3 months, and 9 days is a blog post on my silly blog nobody reads. (And if someone does, thanks for bearing with me through all the parenthesis.)

Jan 25, 2010

I don't get it...

I don't understand my life. I don't understand any of it.

I don't know why I'm at Covenant. Why I'm here, and my family is unhappy 30 minutes away. Why I have a room to myself, with a heater that works and plenty of room, and they have a house with a broken heater and mice invading their privacy. I don't know why I had the privilege of graduating from Hebron, and why my sister and brother are at schools where an academic challenge is something they've had to search after, begging to be put in classes that are difficult. I feel guilty.

I don't know why I had the opportunity to go to Costa Rica, England, Wales, Germany, and France, all under the age of nineteen. I don't know why God called me to go to Ireland last summer. I don't know why He's calling me to go to Uganda this summer. But I feel guilty, because my parents haven't been farther than Hawaii and the Bahamas.

I don't know why I am majoring in Sociology, and minoring in Youth Ministry and Missions at Covenant College. I don't understand why I have never been more excited than I was sitting in my Theology of Missions class last week. I don't know why I had to control exploding with joy by bouncing my legs while Dr. Ward was lecturing. I have no idea why on earth I am called to the things that God has called me to. Ministry is far from all fun and games. It's hard. It's exhausting. But it's what He wants me to do.

Why me?

Proverbs 3:5-6 says, "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways, acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight."

Psalm 37:4 says, "Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart."

These verses are often heard when questioning what God's will is for one's life. I'm not questioning anymore. I know.

I am called to youth ministry overseas. I don't know where, I don't know when, and I don't know how it's going to happen. But that is what I am supposed to do. I have trusted in the Lord, and he has made my paths straight. I have delighted in him, and he has given me these desires. No one in their right mind would choose this life. Yes, it sounds exciting. Yes, I am so excited I can't even contain myself (hence the blog.) But really, it's terrifying.

I prayed that God would use me, that he would send me. I am humbled that he has chosen to use me to serve him in these ways. When I talked with Daddy about Uganda, he excitedly said, "Do it!" Mom was more hesitant. As I explained why I wanted to go, she got all teary-eyed and told me that she gave me to God a long time ago, and she can't stop him from doing what he wants with me. What a blessing it is to have parents who love me, and who have trusted God with my life.

Why do I want to do this, and my sister is called to teach? She gets just as excited about that as I do about missions. It's because God has called us to those things. He has given us the desire to do them. Why do I get to have the desire to do youth ministry and missions? Because God wants me to have these desires.

God wants me to. That is why I am doing what I'm doing. And I am willing.

Jan 17, 2010

Oh the places you'll go...

I'm pretty sure that's a Dr. Seuss book title. Now it's a blog title.

I want to go places. I want to do things. But above these, I want to serve the Lord who created me. Three days ago, I prayed that God would use me. That he would send me where he wanted me, and that I could serve him. I'm going.

Jan 11, 2010

One Year Ago Today...

Let me preface this by saying that I feel like I look back on things too often. Like my last post saying I want to go back to Ireland. And thinking today that I wish I were a transfer again.

One year ago today, I was running around my house trying to get things together to leave for Covenant. I had gotten a phone call the night before from a man who worked for Covenant. He offered me a scholarship, and asked me to move up on Monday and start class Tuesday. What. the. heck.

I had just been at the memorial service of a wonderful woman who was a close friend of our family. I had just been talking with people at church about wanting to be at Covenant. I walked in the house to both of my parents standing in the kitchen smiling. Mom looked at me and said, "We have some exciting news. You may want to sit down." Uhh, ok? What is it? Are we going to Disney World or something? Daddy's response, "No. She's pregnant." and points at Mom. HAH. Funny. Really, what's up? Then Mom told me.

"Covenant called. They want you to come, and start class Tuesday. They're calling back in fifteen minutes."

I talked with the man from Covenant, and then I called everyone I knew. Grandparents. Emily. Blythe. Katie. Baxter was in Chile, so I had to get a hold of him on Skype. Jon. Mike. Lisa. I had to quit my job at Chick-fil-A (I worked there long enough to make $10. Hah.) and let Melissa know that I wouldn't be able to work with the middle school girls at youth group any more. Then packing. Oh man, what to take. Or what not to take? Insane, either way.

Katie drive from Athens and spent the night. We spent most of it trying to figure out what to take, and I had one of the most restless nights I can remember.

Church Sunday morning was bitter sweet. I cried through the hymns that were sung, and a little during the sermon. We told everyone at church, and it was amazing to have such awesome support from so many people. Everyone shared in the joy that I was experiencing.

Sam's for lunch. Pizza, of course. Then buying the essentials. Shampoo, toothpaste, gum, Diet Coke. All that good stuff. That afternoon, Lauren came over to say bye. Emily and Blythe brought me a college basket. Lisa came over and hung out for a bit. Michael stopped by to say bye. I talked with Baxter and told him how nervous I was. I slept in my room for the last time in what felt like forever.

Monday was just as crazy as the day before. I had to get my high school transcript, my Gainesville transcript, shots, doctor's records, and pack the car. I called Covenant so often that the admissions guy who was helping me answered by saying, "Hey Emily, what's up?" because he recognized my number. Mom and Daddy drove with me up to Covenant. We met with tons of people, unloaded and set up all of my stuff, and then they left. I was a student at Covenant College.

Yesterday, I cried on the way up here. Listening to Sufjan, I remembered driving up the mountain for the first time ever. SCARY. I was welcomed back with hugs from Sarah, and help unpacking my car. I went to get Virginia from the airport, made a Wal Mart run, and stopped by Krispy Kreme. I am one of those girls that squeals when she sees her friends she hasn't seen in a month. I remember seeing people do that last year and thinking, "A year from now, I'll be doing that." Yep, right on.

That phone call changed my life. Right now, I'm sitting in a newly-rearraanged 323 alone. Priscilla's getting married, dang it, so I'm all by myself. (kidding. it's great. but I really am by myself.) I can't wait to see what God does in my life. He has, is and will continue to be working in my life. He never ceases to amaze me.

Oct 29, 2009

I'm learning.

Zephaniah 3:17

"The LORD your God is with you,
he is mighty to save.
He will take great delight in you,
he will quiet you with his love,
he will rejoice over you with singing."

He loves me.

Thank you, Dr. Ward, for assigning an exegetical paper.

Aug 22, 2009

Typical.

I am insanely indecisive. This comes from me not truly knowing what I want, because I live for people. To love them, to care about them, to make them happy. My reasoning behind doing most of what I do is to keep everyone around me happy. I do this constantly. I do this despite knowing that ultimately, my purpose is to please God.

It's gotta stop.

Jul 2, 2009

Highs and Lows

High #1- I video chatted with my family. It was wonderful to see them.

High #2- I video chatted with good friends.. I miss them.

High #3- We had Bible Study with The Rock committee today. Suzy and I co-led it, teaching about Jesus praying in the Garden of Gethsemane in Matthew 26. It turned into a great discussion.

Low- My family found out last week that both of my parents have been transferred for work. They move to Ringgold, Georgia (2 hours from Lawrenceville) before I get home. It's awesome that I'll be so close to them (only 30 minutes from Covenant) but hard that we're leaving our church, friends, and the house that we've lived in for almost 15 years.

God has a plan, and knows all of my highs and my lows.
He uses each of them for His glory.