Sigh No More.

This album is phenomenal.

Everything about it is just good. I can't even tell you how many times I have listened to it, each time loving a different song more than I have before.

Right now, Awake My Soul is at the top of my list. Here's why:

How fickle my heart and how woozy my eyes

I struggle to find any truth in your lies

And now my heart stumbles on things I don't know

This weakness I feel I must finally show

Lend me your hand and we'll conquer them all

But lend me your heart and I'll just let you fall

Lend me your eyes I can change what you see

But your soul you must keep, totally free

Har har, har har, har har, har har

In these bodies we will live, in these bodies we will die

Where you invest your love, you invest your life

In these bodies we will live, in these bodies we will die

Where you invest your love, you invest your life

Awake my soul, awake my soul

Awake my soul

You were made to meet your maker

Awake my soul, awake my soul

Awake my soul

You were made to meet your maker

You were made to meet your maker

Please go listen.

Anxiety.

I have struggled with anxiety since I was born. No, really. Since I was born. I have prayed about it, been to counseling about it, talked with older and wiser people, talked with friends. I have done everything in my power to break myself of this habit. After coming to college, I thought it was gone. I gained confidence in myself. I "figured out who I was," I guess you could say. I stopped worrying.

That is, until today. It all came crashing into my head at once. Relationships, work, school, tuition, "OhmygoshIonlyhavetwoyearsleftwhatamIgoingtodowithmyLIFE?!"

I would love to end this post with something like, "Well I will just trust in God. It's easy. Goodnight." No, that's not what you're getting. I want to control it. I want to fix it all. I want to figure everything out. I know that I can't, but I want to. I also know that I'm too stubborn to let go, and I will fight until I'm exhausted and can't fight anymore. Grrrreat.