Painting.

I'm painting my room. It was orange, and is now in the process of becoming blue.

It will be lovely.

Can't sleep.

I can't sleep.

I left my apartment because there are too many spiders, so I'm sleeping at my parents' house. My room is in the process of being painted (and my that, I mean I am in the process of painting my room) and it's not finished yet (I haven't finished it,) so I'm sleeping in Amy's room. She's at the beach. I still can't sleep.

Yesterday, David sent out an email update. He put what he wrote on his Facebook as well. Read it. It breaks my heart, and his as well. It's a good reminder that there are things much bigger than paying off tuition debt, trying to get out of the country for a bit this summer, and painting my room going on in this world. Things that I fight for during school, but tend to put in the back of my mind during summer. (Check out the Human Wrong Initiative.)

The day before that, Rachael called me from Uganda. Could I please tell you that this made my day? Let's be real. I cried. Please read her blog. She's phenomenal, and has such a huge heart for the work she is doing this summer.

This is a very link filled blog. And I feel like lately, I've only been blogging about my friends. Pathetic? Yes, probably. But I love them, and therefore feel as though they are blog-worthy. Not to mention, prayers for them would be great.

I'll go try to sleep. You check out these links.

Friends.

My friends truly mean the world to me. And right now, they are all over the world. Each of them are involved in different things, most of them being ministry. I have been very discontent lately, honestly being jealous of where everyone is and why I'm not gone too. But I am recognizing that God can use me right where I am. I am able to spend so much time in prayer for my sweet friends while I'm working, because cleaning is so mindless. Since I can only communicate with them through email and Facebook, I don't know how my prayers are being answered. I know that God is working in them and through them, and I can't wait to see them when they come home.

Katie- Panama City, Florida. She's doing Beach Project for Campus Outreach. She is leading a room of girls, and is working long and crazy hours at McDonald's. Through that, she and the girls that live with her are able to be a witness to those that they work with and those they come in contact with.

Rachael- Mbarara, Uganda. She is there working with a girls' program, working to teach them about the Lord and how to serve in their community. She has told me that she feel so comfortable there, and I'm so happy for her. I wouldn't be surprised if she didn't end up there permanently.

Virginia- Alaska/Yukon, Canada. She's traveling around doing Vacation Bible Schools and ministering to people in villages. She gets to live in perpetual sunshine and cooler weather. Jealous.

David- Bangkok, Thailand. He's there with MTW, doing campus ministry on the local college campus. All I've gotten so far is that he's playing music, which is perfect for him. I know that he's doing much more, and it's great.

Micah- The Middle East. He was studying abroad in Turkey, and has just recently met up with a group from home on a missions trip in Beirut. Then I think he's going to Jordan? I don't know, but it's awesome. Things fell into place for him to be right where he is, and I am praying that God does amazing things through him.

Baxter- Jordan. He's there for a month for an archeological dig with Wofford. He's going back to study abroad in the fall. Something amazing will happen, trust me.

Sarah- Peru. She's studying abroad, and is the only Christian she knows. I can't imagine how difficult it has been, but I pray that God will use this to draw her closer to him... That when she looks back on it, it will be a sweet time for her relationship with him.

Ellie- Uganda. She will be working in displacement camps, and then hanging out with Invisible Children for a few days. She has a huge heart for the country, and for the work that God is doing there.

Rachael- Ghana. She's going with West Point to do a community development sort of thing for women. It's awesome.

Regan- Duluth, Georgia. She's working at Camp All American at Perimeter Church. This is an awesome outreach to the community, and she get to interact with kids of all ages all. the. time.

Anna Clare and Crystal- They're at Camp Westminster, rockin' being counselors. They both love that place, and I'm so glad they're there. Liz and Allie are also camp counselors. So many people are doing that I can't even name them all. It's great.

Lisa- She's going on a cruise to Italy. It will be so fun.

Me- I'm cleaning. All summer. At Covenant. I'm also interning with Covenant Presbyterian's youth group. Hopefully that will pick up more soon. And hopefully I will see how God is using me. Soon?

It's one of THOSE nights.

I can't sleep. I can't think straight. I can't process what's going on in my head.

Why not?

My heart.

My heart is hurting to go back to Ireland.

This time last year, Baxter was over helping me rearrange my suitcase. I had way too many clothes that I wanted to take, most of them on the floor of my bedroom. Mom had been trying to help, and David and Rachael before that, and it was a fail all the way around. I can't pack a suitcase to save my life. Way to save the day, Bax.

It was the beginning of an adventure. I went to sleep with a full and excited heart, ready to go the next day.

I made my bed and cleaned up my room as best as possible, knowing that I would want it decently clean when I came home. I had no idea it would be the last time I walked out of that room.

I miss Ireland. I miss the people, I miss my team. I watched P.S. I Love You tonight with Apartment 5. Love it.

Rain.

I just ran in the rain. I've never done that before.

And in case you were wondering, it's the perfect I'm-stressed-and-need-to-let-out-some-frustration type of thing to do.

Except then I ruined it by eating a chocolate chip muffin after I got back. Dumb.

Study.

Today is cleaning day. I woke up and immediately started cleaning. Vacuuming, dusting, putting away the piles of clothes I've had piled for the last three months. All while listening to The Beatles on shuffle. It was fantastic.

We then proceeded to have a hall ice cream party. I made myself sick.

Now, on to studying. It is misty and foggy outside, my favorite kind of weather. I'm sitting in our study room with some of my favorite people, all on our computers and studying for various exams.

Time to get down to business.